Today is the Feast of Our Lady of Sorrows. How fitting for me, because today is the day that our Rebecca left us to enter our Lord’s Heavenly Kingdom. If there is anyone who knows my grief, it is Our Lady of Sorrows.
But I am not going to talk about the sadness today. It is there and always will be. It’s a part of me, now. I will carry it with me, like a scar, until the day I die.
What I want to talk about instead, is joy. Joy that Rebecca sits at Jesus’ feet. She doesn’t feel any pain or any sadness. Joy that she was such a precious gift from God. Her time on earth was brief, but I am forever thankful that God chose our family to care for her. She knew only love and happiness. We were given the wonderful opportunity to love her and to be loved by her.
I also want to talk about faith. Absolute faith that we will see her again. God promised us eternal life if we just believe in Him. And God keeps His promises. How fitting then, that Rebecca’s Chinese name means “A thousand rainbows.” Whenever we see a rainbow, we remember Rebecca and God’s promise.
What God did not promise was that it would be an easy road. Only that He would be there with us every step of the way. I have found that to be true. I can bear all things through Christ who strengthens me. I may not want to, but I can.
So today my heart breaks, but I am full of joy and encouraged by faith. It is well with my soul.